oh my god.
look at the time. 609am and im bloggin
sch's at 9am later
sigh

cant sleep e whole night.
body was so tired but cant fall aslp at all.
fuck man.
how to survive till 5am later?
hai.

this time im realli drained out..
its not gonna be the same anymore im sure..
jus awhile more..a lil while more,
i'll make it thru
and able to stand alone once more
without expecting from anybody anymore
i'll learn to make myself happy
i know i can..

'absence makes ur heart fonder'
baby this is definitely not for mi now.
it doesn apply to me at all especially when u are going ns soon.
i jus wan to spend every possible time tog with u.
do u understand?
it's now that we lay the strong foundation for our relationship in order for us to pull thru ur ns years.
its 2 yrs. not 2weeks. not 2 months
so much can happen within then.
absence should nt b an issue in our rs now
it should come later,
when the time is right
do u understand?
if u do, im glad
if u dun, then too bad also.
i shall not force myself to let u understand

every decision that one makes, he/she has to bear certain consequences
its jus tat whether there are more pros or more cons
think carefully before any decision made
cos life is too short to regret
once bitten twice shy
the past is always an experience and lesson u can nv forget or overlooked
everythg happen for a reason
learn from the past..

so much so tat i duwan my past to repeat,
but some thgs ought to happen twice ro wake somebody up
maybe i will learn another lesson from this same thg tat is goin to happen again
but im glad tat im all prepared before things happen..
at least heaven is nt so cruel to mi afterall..

mi and u are responsible for wadever tat happens to our rs
it takes two hands to clap
sucha simple logic but so hard to do it.
to thk about it, its realli quite saddening know..

in the first place, i know tat it will nt work out at all when the solution is nt wad i realli want
at tat point of time, i was so helpless tat i gt no choice but to accept wadever u said
i love u so much tats y im willing to do wadever it takes for our rs
i love you so much tats why im willing to walk beside u in wadever path u choose
but have u love mi as much to be able to see e hurt and pain in me when walking tat path with u?
have u love mi as much to see the consequences we have to bear with choosing tat path?

wadever way u wan, its too abrupt and drastic change
u can handle and see it so postively becos it all benefits u.
u get all the happiness tat u wan
how about mi?
do u see happiness in mi ever since tat happens?
theres not much happiness for mi but onli tears,heartbreak,pain and an overwhelmed feeling for insecure.
i was willing to try tat way out with u becos i wan u to be happy as well
but i have to be frank with u,
tat way isnt gonna work out..
and tat way has made mi so drained out todae tat i dunno if i can be the same anymire
i dunno if i can treat this rs like e past anymore
i dunno if from now on, the past will realli b a past forever