My ah ma

wahahahahaha! this is my first time uploadin photo!!! thanks stephanie muack muack muack!!! hug hug hug f*** f*** f*** also..hahaha..
this is my ah ma..

everybody who meets her finds her adorable..
becos she has the brightest and cutest smile ever:)
but the sad thing is she can't talk :(
she is on heavy medication and that cause her tongue to shrink..
with that, she can't articulate..
and thats v sad cos i no longer can chat with her..
when i was young,
she used to have endless talks..
she chat with mi and even GOSSIP with me hee..
when i got scolded or caned,
i will run over to her house and cry..
she never fail to pacify me with soft drinks and chocolate that she hides away (to prevent us from eatin too much)
i love her alot and it pains me when i see her upset as she cant speak n express herself..
she could onli show gestures that many a time we dunno wad she is tryin to convey..
that ends up with her tearing and us upset..
she is realli a nice lady..
she is a strong grandma!!
years back, she fell down at home and broke her bone again..
she was admitted to the hospital and went thru several operations..
her wounds were open up again and again becos of those damn infections..
it was a torture for her..
it was very painful for her..
she stayed in the hospital for months..
she even said she dreamt of 'dirty things'..
can you imagine how hard isit for her?
she even tried to give up living by pulling out the tubes that are inserted to her arms..
blood splash out and she was crying..
everybody felt her tiredness of living..
but luckily..
god bless her and she pulled it through..
she moved to my hse and she was happy:)
cos there are people in the hse to accompany her..
at least she is nt bored..

i know that she feels lonely at times cos we are nt at home in e day..
and oso she can;t talk..
imagine a thousand words in ur heart but can't be said and expressed out..
her hands are too weak to write as well..
but i hope tat my companion at times will sooth her..

ah ma, babi love u

(my ah ma call mi baby since young..haa!)